I'm not even sure where to start. Sometimes it's like being in a CT scan and being told when to breathe and forget to exhale. Drowning in stress, over-stimulation, overthinking, and doubt. When does life really get easier? In my 27 years of life surviving is all I do. Maybe it truly does rely on your mind set of yourself. Positive over negative thoughts, living for the moment and not stressing about the next thing that comes after. Learning how to not try and control everything but simply let them play out. 

        The more stressed I get the less I sleep, more confusing dreams, staying up and eating junk food. Sweet stress eater right here, nothing seems better than a yummy snack when you feel like a zombie. I'm not sure if that's worse or better for you then alcohol but I can't stand the taste of that stuff. I guess in that category I'm safe. 

        Struggling to adult, just even making phone calls are being procrastinated. Why is it so mentally exhausting to be a human struggling with metal health, single parenting, and just life all together. This isn't how I ever wanted my life, granted it could be; actually has been worse. I'm grateful to be lucky enough to be in counseling with an amazing therapist. That doesn't just fix you though; honestly just keeps you to keep going. 

    Giving up does nothing but add regret to your already full plate. Regret causes anger which truly gets you absolutely nowhere, but trouble most likely. Every spring I sit on my porch and think of how much has changed not just in the last year but the last 9 years. Becoming a mother saved me, though it's making me go through reliving my childhood and growing from it while learning to let it go. 

                Everyone has a past some reason than others. Turning them around is 1000% possible the "I can't" attitude has to disappear. it won't happen over night. You will fail but failing is apart of success because you aren't perfect at something you haven't learned yet. Failing is actually failing when you completely stop trying and learning with the new information you've learned on the way. 

        There's no manual to life. Through wisdom and knowledge all over the world we learn new ways to anything you can think of. It just takes the motivation and will power to achieve it. You are your biggest advocate your voice, opinion, and so much more matter. Life is a crazy journey but with everyone's being completely different the more wisdom grows.