The struggles of doing it myself.

I’m not here to bash, I am here to voice how hard it is to be the soul provider for someone other than yourself. I don’t get to co-parent and have help with IEP’s or just the schooling part. The doctors appointments, the surgeries, sick days, and just to celebrate her wins. Having to hear how much she misses her dad but it has been on him to change and become consistent and not belittle me for doing better than he will. Eight year age gap hits him pretty hard when he’s failed 3 amazing little girls as a father. I’m the same age he was when I had our daughter. I have went through collage and became a CNA, I’m in therapy to learn how to strive at being me, to give my daughter the wisdom of confidence and knowing her worth. It’s her and I against the world always, but it wasn’t supposed to turn out this way. My daughter is my biggest accomplishment I don’t regret her at all. I just wish her dad kept his promise and was a father not just a dad.